This poem was sent to us by one of our supporters Sarah Habermass. It is about her father who sadly passed away in 2017 with Lewy body dementia. He was Welsh, a keen gardener and an ex-teacher, and through the poem Sarah has tried to convey how she imagined his world to be, while living with Lewy body dementia.
Lockdown
A caged bird
I weave through
The thick black fog of memories
In my fractured mind
I am seven
Catching a rugby ball
Mud-caked grey shorts
Welsh rain
Face and uniform pierce my view
Is that you, mother?
Prodding, poking, turning
A proud man
No more dignity
Who is teaching my class today?
The children are in the corridor
Anxiety grips my chest
I need to check the car
Does it still start?
Who will mow my lawn?
Prune my rouge-red roses
This isn’t my home
I want to get out
Where is the old me
My stolen life
A face at the door
Is that you, Gladys?
The real one?
A soothing voice
Familiar perfume
Freshly-baked Welsh cakes
A warm hand in mine
Calmed by love, for now.